a letter to the crying tear.

i've been wanting to write. and typing words out. and i typed a lot to one of my girlfriends. i think maybe because this week has been especially "thoughts-filled", emotional, where in the quietness along morning window-seats bus rides, the mind thinks, the heart feels. If God hadn't been here Shepherding, i won't know how would this week turn out. Or rather, He had all along been Shepherding, it's just at times teary hearts are more sensitive hearts towards His heart. That's just for me, i'm not sure if this is also similar with you.


no, i'm not sad. i'm neither having heartaches. i'm just very thankful that God is God, and He has now become my God, a God i can personally call Father. And even when at times i forget to turn to Him for my first source of strength and help, whenever i come back, come home running, He appears to be stronger than before in my heart: renewed strength and teaching me to trust Him more, to fall in love with Him more. and a lot of work is done through people He gives me esp this semester: where i felt He's teaching me about my sins, my need of Him, and how to love...myself, love people, love Him. Have i found the full complete answer? i can only say i caught a glimpse of these, and would really love to continue serving in all that He's given me to care for, to have a burden for.


tuesday night - CF AGM.
"i believe God can do something through a nobody.. and i still hold to that... it was God who led the CF.. always has and always will :)" - KL.
what can wei do for You, God?

Wed night - Mr nice junior
heart makes me think of "newborn babies" -C.
my newphew came over. he's a tiny little baby. he cries a lot. but i like to look at him.

thursday night - girlfriends, dot.
birthday surprise! ((:
"mold your sensitivity". -C.

week after week, there's so much to feel for, to think about, to hold, to let go.

visual communication
it's a gift from God. May i give it back to Him through all the things that i do within this journey. questions to think about: the depth of love can it be shared with the ones who have gone faster into the working world? am i at times too focused on present/what's before me & forgetting the bigger picture, and be inclusive of close close friends from previous years of school? A teacher's words of affirmation brought me tears. I hope with all my heart in the chosen path, i won't look back with thoughts of "what-ifs" or "maybe" if i've chosen her, how would things be like? But i really need to learn to say "let me think about it" before committing a yes; even if it's verbal. it's a painful lesson. not just to me, but to my teacher too.
选了。别回头看了，薇。

就是心有点为你而痛。

i have this... i hope to do it with who i am, with all i am, for this particular teacher. and for all the sharing she gave me, encouragements, and forgiveness. 想哭。真心希望你会更坚强。

know too:
"Whatever you do, work at it with all your heart,
as working for the Lord,
not for men." Colossians 3:23
really trust You were the One that helped me find so so so much favor in the professors' eyes, all Glory to You. God.


我觉得对不起你。but you told me to let that go....... i was touched to tears, as you put me first before yourself.

janitor aunty at library shared her sadness with me today. i think i saw tears.... i really hope she'll be strong, and finds true joy. God, please work in the supervisor's heart.

shall go off. much to digest. ((:

Psalm 112 is encouraging! :D
"He will have no fear of bad news;
his heart is steadfast,
trusting in the Lord."


i saw this girl today, she who said these words:
"if we know Christ reigns in our hearts - on a daily basis, then we can rest in that He knows our heart, and is pleased with our hearts bended to him from moment to moment. :)"
bended to Him
moment to moment.
Bended to Him.
(: